"Helpless when she smiles"

Nick Carter reminds me of Nic Choy. The hair, the fashion sense - shirt, jeans, white shoes. Only thing missing is the sweater, but make no mistake: Nic probably has one too; just that the Singapore weather doesn't permit him to wear it all the time.

ANYWAY NICK IS HOT AGAIN! I hated to admit it to anyone but myself, but yes he was rather fat. Thank you God, for making him come to his senses and realising that he needs to go on a diet. My compliments to his hairstylist as well, he looks pretty darn good.

On a sadder note though, BSB without Kevin is obvious. They definitely don't sound the same and I miss seeing five of them. Why oh why did he have to "move on with the next chapter of [his] life"?

Okay this will be my last blog post until after my Monday paper. I swear!

Try Defying Gravity

I'm going out of my mind.

I absolutely detest studying for my nursing module! Everything feels so disorganised, I don't know what I need and don't need to know cos the objectives are kinda vague and there's just so much information!

Don't even get me started on the Haematology lecture. The lecturer put in so many abbreviations that I'm too lazy to look them up any more cos every 5 mins I'm like, "What the hell is DDVAP/FEIBA/[insert other ridiculous abbreviation here]?" I have a strong feeling that we don't even need to know a lot of things cos it really seems quite advanced for our level. They should really vet the content before giving it to us to study. I know it's rather demanding but I think, as a student, I have the right to expect teaching that's catered to our capabilities.

It's no use telling myself that I can do it, cos I don't believe it anymore.

Mampus.

Jillian cannot change my clinical placing from CGH to AH so guess what? I'm stuck in CGH! Dammit. It really sucks. She says that it's the address they used is the one indicated in my registration file for NUS. Even if Sheares Hall is not indicated, isn't it enough that I TOLD her I was staying in hall, that I had commitments here? I think she just plain forgot.

I think I'll have to move back home for the 2 weeks. I have to explain to Ronald my horrible situation which will create difficulties for me AND for him. I have to travel between home and NUS to oversee the Chingay work and the journey is not exactly short.

Argh! Feeling very annoyed right now and it's definitely not a good way to start the morning.

Heureux

Edit (17/11, 13 58hrs): The Golden Compass is in the RBR section of the library! How ludicrous. How in the world do they expect me to finish reading the damn thing in 2 hours? And it's not like I'm so free as to keep renewing it every 2 hours! Stupid. The sequels aren't RBR so why the first one? Grr.

I am one happy girl.

Just came back from watching Stardust with Eng Hooi and James. The movie was pretty good but sometimes I feel like the characters pop out from nowhere. The soundtrack sounded like a combination of LOTR, Pirates of the Caribbean and Narnia so I quite enjoyed it but it got repetitive at some points. I wanted to get the book and was thrilled to realise that Central Library has a copy until I saw that it was on Hold with TEN HOLDS LEFT! :( but it's okay cos I'm going to borrow The Golden Compass instead, which seems like another good read. Whoopee! So excited that I'm going to have a new book to entertain me. Well I did borrow The Afghan from Yen but the story hasn't enthralled me thus far so going to put that on hold.

Next bit of euphoria came from that fact that I managed to wrangle an A for my Psych paper! Considering my atrocious marks in the CA, I really needed this. I can't quite believe it actually;I keep thinking that I'm going to wake up from a dream or realise that I looked at the wrong column for my grade.

Last happy pill is that Don finally bought for me cupcakes baked by The Baker Who Cooks, aka Cheryl. I've been bugging him to buy them for me ever since I found out that he knows her. I think he got for me the Nutella ones. Yum yum :) They're going to be my breakfast tomorrow before my dreaded GEM 1008 test.

I'm in such a good mood that I can't even rant properly about the fact that I'm posted to CGH which is freaking far away from hall, when I TOLD Jillian that I'll be staying in hall this semester. Will let out my frustrations another time when I'm feeling more angsty.

Apocalypse Now

Today's Pharmaco test was one of the worst I've ever taken. I blanked out during the paper and even forgot the topics that I studied really well. I know a bad carpenter always blames his tools - and I'm probably doing the same thing - but I still think the paper was ridiculous. The lecturer tested us so much on Pharmacokinetics which I didn't memorise properly cos my focus was on mechanisms, clinical uses and side effects. Nurses don't really need to know PK! That's a pharmacist's job! I tell you, I swear I'm going to flunk it. The time allocated was also too short in my opinion. 25 minutes to do 72 true-false questions? Insane. I need time to think and remember!

It's partly my fault too for not studying hard enough but this time, there was so much to learn and I was always distracted so easily. Nothing seemed to be getting inside my head, maybe cos the material was so comprehensive and my poor brain couldn't take it anymore.

Anyway I was extremely depressed after the paper. I didn't even feel like eating anything! Which, for those of you who know me, is a pretty serious thing.

But I'm stronger than this and I WILL get through the semester, even though right now I still feel lousy.