my life ahead

Yayness, my attachment's over :)

It's been a long and draining two weeks at the hospital and one week at the polyclinic. Okay fine, actually the polyclinic wasn't THAT tiring cos I sat down a lot but for some unfathomable reason I always came back feeling tired as hell. Nothing interesting happened, same old same old. Listen to report, bathe patients, feed patients, answer call bells, take parameters, observe procedures. Lunch was what I looked forward to everyday. How loserish is that? It's a rhethorical question btw.

Results were out today. I didn't do well at all but I'm just really relieved that I managed to pass everything. After what Mdm Liaw told us yesterday, I scared myself silly worrying about the results and running every scenario through my mind, including the worst-case one which is if I failed both Physio and Pharmaco. In the end, I decided that if I had to re-take anything, then so be it.

I still don't comprehend why we have to take modules with Pharmacy and Dentistry. Once again, I'm not saying we're stupid but there's a reason we're not in bloody Pharmacy or Dentistry! Some of us are just not of the same calibre. I do understand the rationale of pitting us against them; it would look good if we managed to hold our own but the truth is, we're just suffering. I want to be among the best but I'm going to have to study much harder than this and I know all I need is the... Oh what the hell. All of you have heard the promises to myself to study harder and I swear I did this sem but it wasn't enough.

Nevermind there are still two more years to pull up my CAP but I get this funny feeling that it won't be happening. I wish I was more ambitious but I'm just...not. Money still doesn't seem like an important issue to me cos I'm stuck in the "I don't care about the pay, I just want to enjoy my job" phase. I hope I get "Money is important" into my thick skull soon so that maybe, just maybe I'll pull up my socks and work for a chance at doing Honours. I really hope I don't have to sacrifice too much of my extra-curricular activities for that cos I truly believe that grades aren't everything. I say it all the time, I'd much rather enjoy my life and get average grades than do fantastically well and have a non-existent social life.

God, this turned out to be quite a long entry. I didn't mean for it to be so lengthy but it just happened. As usual it's just ranting about the injustice of it all. And I should shut up now to avoid making a long post even longer.

Ragging in 2 days.